Well, hello there everyone. Guess it’s been a bit.
I’m still dating the girl I went on the date with last time, so I suppose it worked out well. xD We get along super well, which is nice.
Apart from that, life is being the same insane, stupid thing that it has been. BUT, I did finish a new song, which is as yet unnamed haha.
“All the mail is from bill collectors,
Just vampires that bleed me dry.
There is no comfort within the whiskey,
or in the caffeine that keeps me high.
But your body is the same as all the rest;
you’re not important.
And when your time is up,
you’ll fade just like me.
So don’t pretend the cosmos care:
you’re just another link in the chain.
And all your smiles are stiff and plastic
They do their best to match your forms
In fifty years, you’ll see them melted,
and you will wish you weren’t born.
That’s what I’ve got so far. We shall see if I decide to add a bridge or not haha.
I hope you guys are all doing well.
I do! This coming Saturday! She was the photographer at my best friend’s wedding last summer, and we’ve been in touch sporadically since then. I asked her if she wanted to grab food and coffee this weekend, and she does! Woo!
Holy bejesus. I guess I haven’t posted since earlier this year. I guess I’ve just been preoccupied, and mostly with being an alcoholic or my recent job, which is killing me.
So I’ve begun watching my friend’s mother. She’s 55 and she has early-onset Alzheimers; you would think she was 95 if you met her. You can’t have a conversation with her, and anything that requires her to focus beyond 6 seconds is out of the question. I’ve been watching her for money since my best friend’s brother went back to college a couple of months ago. It’s definitely been taking a toll on me though, and I find myself leaning pretty heavy towards existential nihilism at this point. Life seems fairly pointless.
I’m going to try and get back into school for January though, just so I can find a degree in something that will get me out of this job, and out of this place.
Other than that, I am starting guitar lessons on Friday, and I have been doing my best to start writing again.
I hope you’re all doing well!