That first drunken giggle always makes me feel better. It lets me know that my legs don’t hurt AS bad as they usually do, because I’m always in pain. It lets me know that I can laugh at the world and that it isn’t a laugh born from a place of pain, but just because I’m feeling good. It lets me know that I don’t have to be ashamed of my bisexuality for a little bit, having been raised in a very Christian household (with a dad that was a pastor, even). I know that the people around me don’t like me drinking, and I feel bad that I feel the need to do it so much; but I also know that it has gotten me through a lot of the pain of the last two years, and helps me not feel the pain of the last seven as hard as I might normally.
Life is just an odd thing.
I am a dreamer, and I often wish I wasn’t. I think life would be more simple.
Before, I get freakier, I’ll sign off haha.
Well, hello there everyone. Guess it’s been a bit.
I’m still dating the girl I went on the date with last time, so I suppose it worked out well. xD We get along super well, which is nice.
Apart from that, life is being the same insane, stupid thing that it has been. BUT, I did finish a new song, which is as yet unnamed haha.
“All the mail is from bill collectors,
Just vampires that bleed me dry.
There is no comfort within the whiskey,
or in the caffeine that keeps me high.
But your body is the same as all the rest;
you’re not important.
And when your time is up,
you’ll fade just like me.
So don’t pretend the cosmos care:
you’re just another link in the chain.
And all your smiles are stiff and plastic
They do their best to match your forms
In fifty years, you’ll see them melted,
and you will wish you weren’t born.
That’s what I’ve got so far. We shall see if I decide to add a bridge or not haha.
I hope you guys are all doing well.